Surely Goodness and Mercy shall follow me al the days of my life

I am so thankful to be working. Yes, I have a full time job. i just started this week and I think I will really like it. I must say I started having doubts that God really was looking out for me, but then i went into the house of the Lord and an older brother in Christ relaly encouraged me to use this time to spend with Jesus and to cultivate that relationship. Of course I knew I actually had more than enough time b/c I was only doing an after school program, but forsome reason I just ignored it and did what i wanted to do. Somewhere deep down I believe that I was holding out on God b/c he did not bless me, or what I consider blessing. I realized that I truly was finding my identity in the fact that if I did not work I was a loser and if I did then I had some type of significance. I am sure I know where that came from, but besides that I had to nip that in the bud and go to God and be like for real this is how I am feeling but I know I need you and I really don't trust that you got my back. i said something to that effect I am sure. Anyway that was just last Thursday. Saturday I had a job, I was like wow, really God are you serious. man surrender is bitter sweet, but so much more sweet and necessary than bitter. God never changes he never has left me, and he never will. I cannot live in fear, he is not witholding anything good from those who walk uprightly. Surely I belive .

Kobe Bryant on it!

I hate failure, and I generally try to avoid it at all costs. I must confess that I failed in keeping up with my blog, so much so that I even forgot the name of it. I have been giving people my wrong blog address. That is just nonsensical on my part. Anyhow one thing I know for sure is that failure is to be learned from and can be turned into success based on how you respond to it. So tonight here I am responding to failure and doing a Kobe Bryant in its face. Brief background on what I mean by that, I have a friend who has a song on his CD called "Kobe Bryant on it". He is a big Lakers fan as well as I and so when it comes to obstacles, temptations and things such as that he says "I Kobe Bryant on it" meaning slam dunk or just make a fool out of it on the court. LOL Actually while I am speaking of the CD I must say it is a great one it is called "Lions and Liars" Sho Baraka. I will post his video for one of the songs, it is really quality and has a great message.