Are you covering other's sin?

 https://www.desiringgod.org/interviews/how-does-love-cover-a-multitude-of-sins#:~:text=Love%20wants%20holiness%2C%20not%20sin,a%20forgiving%20spirit%20at%20work

 Proverbs 10:12: “Hatred stirs up strife, but love covers all offenses.” That’s really close to what Peter says, that “love covers all offenses.” You can see how close the parallel is to Peter’s “love covers a multitude of sins.” So what does this proverb mean? The contrast is between hatred and love. What hatred does is stir up strife, and what love does is cover offenses. The opposite of covering offenses is to stir up strife."

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Endo has been such a pain in my assets!!!

 It's hard not to talk about endometriosis and not be graphic. I mean it is a medical issue specifically triggered because our our menstrual cycle. People cringe when I tell them after they ask. After centuries of our menstrual cycle being a part of the miracle of producing future generations we still can't talk about it socially. As normal and regular this process is endometriosis is everything but that. I am providing this visual as a brief explanation of what many go through. 

Although my version is considered a bit more graphic I will just say I was so happy when they came up with  this diagnosis. The puzzle pieces were finally coming together.

Rinse and Repeat (Cycles)

 Not again! I am looking back at my old blog posts and thinking, "wait this is where I am right now". 

I don't know how I feel about seeing stuff I wrote 12 years ago and having the same struggles today. I don't even remember the context. But every word hits like I wrote it today. I'm disappointed. That's how I feel, like I let myself down. Have I not learned? Have I been stagnant? 

Wait is this my wilderness journey? Am I being stiff-necked like the Israelites?

The pastor today was speaking about immediate necessary changes that is a part of seasons. What resonated with me was when he said how some people get upset with God because they want a warning before the change. Those people pout, complain or even turn back because what is known has been replaced with the unfamiliar. That does not feel good always. It can feel like chaos in your own body when things change too quickly. What I really needed to hear was the warning about mismanaging the season because you are unwilling to submit to the changes. That was for me. 

What was also for me was a woman telling me the Holy Spirit told her to reassure me of some things I was wrestling with, really all the things. She spoke life over me and prayed for me. Thank you Holy Spirit for reminding me that I am seen and known and not alone. 

(Youtube clip) This whole episode is great, but when Stephanie spoke about how we try to rush through seasons and even use spiritual disciplines to "move" God on our timing. She said we try to pray and fast our way out, that was sooooo on point. If God has something for you to learn in the season there is NOTHING anyone can do to change the course. He will bring your tail right back until you surrender. How do you wait with hope?

Rejection is God’s protection

Not really sure how this can help someone today...personally I have been feeling down, sad, and alone. I try not to display much emotion and at times it takes even me a while to realize it is something wrong. But I was reading and the Lord revealed the lie I was exchanging for the truth. That I was finding my value in what others thought of me, how they treated me rather than who God says I am. I believe I struggled with this for a while but it just displayed itself in varied form. I am learning when we dwell on lies we will believe them! We have to destroy them with the truth of Gods word. Only God has the right and the power to define our worth. 1 peter 2: 4 says even Jesus was "rejected by men, yet chosen by God and precious to Him". Oh to believe the latter over the former. We do not need to seek approval or affirmation from man. We are chosen by the maker of the universe and fully and completely loved and accepted by him. Christ dying on the cross was him declaring the value of our soul is greater than anything in this life.

Strong men/ ladies only

“The world cries for men who are strong: strong in conviction, strong to lead, to stand, to suffer... glad to shoulder the burden of manliness. Characteristics of manhood that were exemplified in the life of Christ.  Responsibility, sacrifice, courage, obedience, initiative, forgiveness and endurance.”..Elisabeth Elliot
This being the case they will still be imperfect humans that need to be shown grace upon grace the same as women.  So sistas no matter what respect and honor our brothas.  #teachmeLord

Love your neighbor like you trust yoursel

Love and trust are the one thing that everyone yearns for yet are paralyzingly scared to show. You really can't have one without the other. Yet both are the very thing we lack greatly. No one is fully trustworthy tho we strive to be, and no one truly loves unconditionally. But God commands us to love as he loved. He sacrificed, he sees the grimy,filthy stuff of our real selves and still loves us the same. He also says if we abide in him we are to love others the same way. I have no answer to this difficult concept other then Run to Jesus! He will not command us to do anything he will not empower us to do. Let his love control you.


We love ourselves so much more than God and other people. That is why we can't trust. Instead of suffer wrong for the sake of someone else possibly benefiting we allow them to suffer so we wont have to hurt. This is everything else but the gospel. Christ love is selfless and not emotionally based but it is passionately driven. My loveliness, or wonderful personality did not motivate Christ to go to the cross. It was my brokenness, helpless state, misery, and emptiness. Forget the fantasy of evading hurt, even Jesus learned obedience through the things he suffered. Every heartbreak and disappointment has to go through God first. So let's love,serve and sacrifice as we lean on Jesus.